Healing begins the moment you choose to take your power back.
I never realized before that I always had the power within me. I knew I was strong and independent, but I allowed too many people to come in and take the wind right out of my sails.
And for years I suffered.
Why do we allow others to have this much control? Why do we cower when we feel guilt or shame? Why are we not standing up for ourselves?
The only answer that I can muster is that I was a people pleaser. I wanted to be liked. No, I wanted to be loved. I wanted to be valued.
I wanted to matter.
But, there is a cost when it comes to relationships. Whether you invest in a friendship or a love relationship there is a cost.
It will cost you your time.
It will cost you your energy.
It will cost you your heart.
Because, if you are anything like me, you truly value your investment in humans. You have a deep love for connection. You treasure the precious moments and memories.
And sometimes that investment will take rather than give.
The key is to be prepared. A healthy person must know ahead of time that other humans are gonna fail you!
YOU are going to fail you.
Yet, if you know the risks and you choose to accept the chance anyway, then failure may be an option.
But failure is NOT a permanent option.
It is a…
F – first
A – attempt
I – in
L – learning
If you allow yourself to catch some scrapes and bruises, your heart “skin” will become a little thicker. Your mind will become wiser. And your soul will become stronger.
In the journey of becoming process driven, I am choosing to take my power BACK.
I am choosing to guard my heart more, to solidify my soul more, and to still find human tenderness in the trenches.
So look out 2019!